Saturday, October 10, 2009

This is where I scream From!!!

Why do our hearts betray us this way?
Why are they allways fighting against what you want them to do?
Against whats right?
Why do they want to hurt us?
Why do they allways change their minds?
A descision should last forever.
Not change.
So why do my opinions change.
Why do the descisions i have made, the ones i thought i wanted.
End up to be wrong?
Why do i yell at myself inside my head.
Fighting from both sides of the problem.
My wants? My needs?
Who cares!
Why cant i do whats right and be happy with it.
Why cant i think things through and never make mistakes?
What if i want smooth sailing?
No sleepless nights.
No endless problems.
No Problems!!!
Who made them?
When did they start?
Who had the stupid idea to give man kinda a conscience?
Why do i have to feel bad?
Why? cause i should!
Oh how i wish i didnt!
How come i cant go back?
Fix my problems. So i dont have to deal with them?
How come they have to allways be there sitting at the back of my mind,
dampening my spirits.
Making my day move by just that little bit slower.
Making it that much harder.
What if its not my fault?
Why should i have to deal with it?
Havn't we all had enough?
Why doesnt it ever stop?

1 comment:

  1. I love you, my lovely wife! Post something!