Thursday, July 1, 2010


stop reading. tis sucky
here you go


Monday, June 28, 2010

im like a bird.

only not at all.
Good bye blogger.
you can S my D.
hello wordpress.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

So come out of your cave walking on your hands And see the world hanging upside down.

We are all a little weird and life's a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love.

Thursday, June 3, 2010

I'm sorry.

Yupp. I am a douche bag. I really suck at thinking about other peoples feelings sometimes. Ive tried to fix that. But i just fail. Im strong minded and entirely open about my opinions....even when my opinions hurt people i care about. But i never meant to hurt anyone. I talk to much and im generally over confident which would make my opinion even more annoying. I almost feel i should delete this blog just because i know its not helping me. My goal to not post anything to personal has failed me. Im sure some of you have guessed my point. So im just going to get there. I do not have a problem with anyone who believes in or follows any religion. I realize that this may have been (and by may i mean entirely was) what it seemed like. I had some pretty out there posts. But i never meant them to seem like i had a problem with anyone religious or likewise. I entirely support religion and find it incredibly interesting to learn about. (which is pretty much the point of those posts) Religion is just not something i understand or want to pursue personally. My mind cant accept it. But if yours does i have nothing against it. Ive tried to bring it into my life countless times but its just not me. I realize it would probably lead to me becoming a better person and to me embracing a part of me that could do great things. But once again i say. its just not who i am. and thats why im apologizing. Im apologizing because im sorry that words i wrote hurt you and changed your opinion of me and because im sorry that i cant learn to be the better person you see me being. But im ready to fully accept you and im sorry that i was too hurt to see the stupidity in myself. Truly id just like to sit down and have a conversation with you. But i dont see that ever being something you want to do. I cant believe i ever let something get between me and a friend i truly care about. I dont even know why im writing this. Cause once again its 2 in the morning and i seem to regret posts i write when im supposed to be sleeping. But its something that needs to be said cause i dont know if i can deal with this any longer. Even though i know i have brought this on myself... This post didnt need to be that long... pretty much my point is i miss having you around.

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

We all know what pan does when shes lazy.

I say hey I'll be gone today
But I'll be back all around the way
It seems like everywhere I go
The more I see
the less I know
But I know one thing
That I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you

I’ve been a lot of places all around the way
I’ve seen a lot joy and I’ve seen a lot of pain
but I don’t want to write a love song for the world,
I just want to write a song about a boy and a girl
Junkies on the corner always calling my name
And the kids on the corner playing ghetto games
When I saw you getting down well I hoped it was you
And when I looked into your eyes I knew it was true
I say Hey I'll be gone today
But I'll be back all around the way
It seems like everywhere I go
The more I see
the less I know
But I know one thing
That I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you

Now I’m not a highly metaphysical man
But I know when the stars are aligned you can
bump into person in the middle of the road
look into their eyes and you suddenly know
Rocking in the dance hall moving with you
Dancing in the night in the middle of June
My momma told me don’t lose you
‘cause the best luck I had was you
I said Hey I'll be gone today
But I'll be back all around the way
It seems like everywhere I go
The more I see the less I know
But I know one thing
That I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you

And I said rocking in the dance hall moving with you
I said Hey momma hey momma close to you
Rocking in the dance hall moving with you
I said hey papa, hey papa close to you
Rocking in the dance hall moving with you
I said Hey Momma close to you
Rocking in the dance hall moving with you I said
hey momma, hey momma, hey momma, hey momma
hey momma, hey momma, hey momma, hey momma
what you gonna do?

My momma told me don’t lose you
Cause the best luck I had was you
And I know one thing that I love you
I said hey I'll be gone today
but I’ll be back all around the way
It seems like everywhere I go
The more I see the less I know
I said hey I'll be gone today
but I’ll be back all around the way
It seems like everywhere I go
The more I see the less I know
But I know one thing that I love you

Monday, May 24, 2010

Dont you rain on my parade. :)

Each morning when I open my eyes I say to myself: I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn't arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I'm going to be happy in it.

- Groucho Marx

What exactly is happiness and how can we find it? Though it is defined as the condition of being content, the concept of happiness is still vague. Happiness is often thought of as having a lot of money, love, or power. In short getting everything you want and more. But can these things actually make people happy? Happiness, which is often assumed of as a fairly simple concept, is actually more than what people think of it. Although this natural emotion is desired by many, it is very obscure and therefore, for most, extremely difficult to find. It can be mysterious and elusive. Sought for, but often not found. Everybody desires to be happy. It is essential to our health and well-being. Happiness, though intangible, is one of the most important aspects in an individual’s existence. So why not be happy? Most people are about as happy as they make up their mind to be. So why does it have to be so complicated. Humans look at it from the wrong angle. They see it as something to search for instead of realizing it is something they are capable of. Notice that the glass is always half full. Happiness is something we all hold in the palm of our hands.

Thursday, May 20, 2010

Fuck you, Fuck you Very, Very much! :)

you make me laugh. So im pretty much stoked. Like, of course im not happy with the fact buuuut. Yeah. Ok. So my dads crack whore (notice lack of caps, ever, cause shes a WHORE) A BIG ONE. has apparently moved to New Zealand with my ever loving (not) faj. So, we have known this was a possibility. But truely we thought it was more likely that she was living in PG.
But nooope. SO pretty much me and my brother are planning murder. Of course not litterally. Some quotes from this convo go like this:
Paul: "So, mom, if i come back from NZ with a criminal record would that be a bad thing?"
Mom: "Yes. Even though it does sound like fun." i laughed forever.
yeah. so i plan on never really referring to her as any thing that is even slightly not bitchy.
possible nicknames include bitch, whore, possibly cunt? just cause i love my brother. Now. Truely at first i was in that hell yes mood. and im stoked to pwn her. just cause. and to get her to make me mince pies alll theee timmmeee. and cut off her hair in her sleep. and
you know put rat poison in her crack. replace her cocaine with icing sugar. you know how it is.
I truely dont understnad how you could ever do that to anyone? What she did to us? I dont know how she lives with her self. Shes idiotic. And very very very lucky. That she has mangaed to avoid me for this long. I used to see her all the time. And really ...i wonder why? oh hey crack whore wanna have sex with me while my kids wait in the car?? ohhh suure fuck tard. sounds like fun. I want to beat her face in so bad. so bad. like to a pulp. and truely. these feelings are not uncalled for at all.

And ok. So fuck tard. Im gonna rant here. the more i rant the easier it will be to actually tell you that i dont think i can ever forgive you for what you did to me? what was all this bull shit you tried to give me how many years ago? yeah, "we and your moms have our problems, but well always be a family" BULLSHIT. we wernt even a family there. The only reason you could deal with being home is because there was something to clean. which means you could ignore us. and all those times you lied? yeah. i know about many. and the rest (which are prolly much more plentiful) i can guess that they are prolly worse. OH and yeah. I dont care if i never had a proper father. But wog needed you. He still needs you. I so wished you had at least tried. And no, giving him a beer at the river bank when hes 8 isnt trying. Not including him in anything you do isnt trying. One of your best friends is being a better dad to him then you ever were. and all he had to do is get him to help with the stupid business that you wouldnt leave to him. Cause youre a tard. and actually wait when im on this i am going to rant. Its your fault that i cant deal with sad feelings adn its your fault that i feel i need to be loved by everyone. And maybe thats why i always loved you more. Cause you didnt love me and i felt i had to try extra hard so you would show any form of fatherly feelings. Mommy gave me all i could ask for. All the love in the world. But she wasnt the challenge you were. Everyday id try to get a hug. Just a hug. I remember when you would get mad ta me for that. Just causee i wanted a hug? cause youre my father? or you are supposed to be... But this only made me try harder. I loved to complain about my legs hurting cause then you would carry me around on your shoulders. You rlove menat so much more to me. I see now its cause there wasnt really any there. and im ok with that. i can deal. but i kno wim better then that whore. so why dont you see that too?? and so i can say i hope the sand and thee booze is treating you well.

oh and.

Look inside,
Look inside your tiny mind
Now look a bit harder
Cause we're so uninspired,
so sick and tired of all the
hatred you harbor

So you say
It's not okay to be gay
Well I think you're just evil
You're just some racist who
can't tie my laces
Your point of view is medieval

Fuck you (Fuck you)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you (Fuck You)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause your words don't translate
And it's getting quite late
So please don't stay in touch

Do you get,
Do you get a little kick out of
being slow minded?
You want to be like your father
It's approval your after
Well that's not how you find it

Do you,
Do you really enjoy living a
life that's so hateful?
Cause there's a hole where
your soul should be
Your losing control of it and
it's really distasteful

Fuck you (Fuck You)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you (Fuck You)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause your words don't
translate and it's getting
quite late
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you, Fuck you, Fuck you,
Fuck you, Fuck you, Fuck you,
Fuck yooooou

You say
You think we need to go to war
well you're already in one
Cause it's people like you
who need to get slew
No one wants your opinion

Fuck you (Fuck You)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you (Fuck You)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause your words don't
translate and it's getting
quite late
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you, Fuck you
Fuck you, Fuck you
Fuck you, Fuck you

...i love you.

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

I keep trying to sleep but its really not working for me.

How am i finding these?
ANYWHO. As i was saying before......
Why is god so superior? I never truely understood that fact. Everyones like well he did this and this and this. But really, why is that so impressive? Like, i have nothing against it, and feel free to enlighten me. But why is it so impressive? They have kinda proved the whole he created everything theory wrong. Like maybe he did create the earth but the fact that he created everything on earth has so much proof going against it. Like come on. I implore you to see reason.(sorry harry potter quote) Like even my crazy catholic teacher got over that fact he had some odd theory that mixed evolution and the story of creation together in a way that made sense. I supported that. Other then that we all praise him because he sent his son to die for our sins? But how exactly did he release us from our sins by dieing.? I appreciate it and all. But im just not really sure how i benefit. Maybe i missed this day in school. And once again i say feel free to enlighten me. I just dont understand. Cause reall yeah ok sure he sent his son to die for our sins. But isnt every second father in America doing that right now? Their sons are fighting in Afghanistan and such to release the states from sin. Cause isnt that what killing people for oil is considered? yeah i duunno. maybe these men deserve more praise. I applaud them. :)

And then theres the fact that we do all this so we wont get sent strait to hell. But you see that confuses me. Why are we avoiding hell again? Yes, ok heaven is supposed to be perfect. But ive never really had a thing for perfect. And the idea of not being bale to sin, ever. Really bores me. And yes we are supposed to fear Satan. OOOO the devil. But doesnt the teachings of the church say that Satan is still on earth spreading sin? (Not even mentioning the fact that jesus was supposed to return 30 years after he died and save us from Satan. or am i wrong?) So, Heres the dealio. Im supposed to fear hell cause satan will torture me in hell. But satan is on earth. Why do i fear hell again? Its warm. I like sinning. YAYY. so truely i just dont understand any of it. It just confuses me. And im supposed to be sleeping. But this is what was running through my head. SO i rant. and sleep now.

Am i actually going to properly blog? HOLY SHIT

Love is madness. Its all bullshit. Like really. Who knows what love really is. No one does. But how else do we all describe this feeling? We all feel it eventually. And if not well then i pray to allah for you. But truely if i think it through i dont really believe in love. Like dont take that the wrong way. I do. But mostly i believe in happiness. We all want to be happy. And love is just another factor in happiness that we have all made up and squished into our heads. And it makes no sense. Buts its always there. And we all want it. Wed kill for it. Die for it. And it makes absolutely no sense. What does that tell you about the human mind? Were all idiotic thats what. But that is ok. Cause i love being happy. And i love love. WOOP WOOP.

"Now is he interesting or do you think he'd bore us"
I love Lily Allen.
but shes right.

Would you please take me away from this place
I cannot bear to see the look upon your faces
And if there is some kind of god do you think he's pleased
When he looks down on us I wonder what he sees
Do you think he'd think the things we do are a waste of time
Maybe he'd think we are getting on just fine
Do you think he's skint or financially secure
And come election time I wonder who he'd vote for

Ever since he can remember people have died in his good name
Long before that September
Long before hijacking planesHe's lost the will he can't decide
He doesn't know who's right or wrong
But there's one thing that he's sure of this has been going on too long

Do you think he'd drive in his car without insurance
Now is he interesting or do you think he'd bore us
Do you think his favourite type of human is caucasianDo you reckon he's ever been done for tax evasion
Do you think he's any good at remembering people's names
Do you think he's ever taken smack or cocaine
I don't imagine he's ever been suicidal
His favourite band is Creedence Clearwater Revival

Ever since he can remember people have died in his good name
Long before that September
Long before hijacking planes
He's lost the will he can't decideHe doesn't know who's right or wrong
But there's one thing that he's sure of this has been going on too long

Ever since he can remember people have died in his good name
Long before that September
Long before hijacking planes
He's lost the will he can't decide
He doesn't know who's right or wrong
But there's one thing that he's sure of this has been going on too long

I dont know how this is getting back into my mind. But its always there. And its stupid. I dont want to have anything against religion. But there are certain things that have happened in my life that kinda have pushed me in that direction. And dont get me wrong i will support anyones views. But really. I do think god would bore me. If hes anything like my childhood religion classes then i would be bound to get into a heated argument with him about anything from womens rights to his problems with the superiority complex.

Speaking of which. What do you kids have against communism. Yes i know its never works out properly. And truely its just socialism. BUT WHATEVER! it seemed to work in Cuba. Anything that can make an entire country so happy cant possibly be that bad. And yes i know it would work for us. Especially at this point in our development. But.........whatever. Go to cuba. its rad.

and on that note.

"Can you believe this shit? I guess hell froze over. ... a lot of people come up here and thank Jesus for this award. I want you to know that no one had less to do with this award than Jesus. So, all I can say is, 'suck it, Jesus.' This award is my god now."

yeah youre hot.

Friday, April 30, 2010

Have you seen it!? Its great! Theyve got stuff!

you know what i like?
no you dont
im not sure why amanda
oh good amanda
yeah fun
i dont know why i update this especially since it makes no sense at all ever
and i say this in every post
but DO you know what i like
i like this
HA your still confused
byee :)

Saturday, April 24, 2010

'Cause I just wanted I just wanna say Baby I believe .

Jonathan just moved my couch in its entirety.
...and is rubbing elizabeth... :D
so i realize that my blog really makes no sense at all
jonathan is dumb and wont give me my phone.......
im going to make sense!
today i awoke to a very angry mother
she wantedme to clean
and i did clean
now my bedroom is uber clean
just for liz
they are being flirty....ewww
paul is so idiotic
we went to dq for lunch
and ate nom
and creeped
then we went to shoppers
and bought fake tan and perrrty lipstick
then we went to the library and creeped some more
and i read some modern age religious books
about Christianity
and jewssss
and it was very interesting
annnnd some old chick was hitting on jonathan
and we laughed at her
and then when we were not laughing at her
she was like "what? are you guys laughing at me or something?"
and were like "shhhwaaaattttttt?"
i love jamie. :)
then i stole aunty nens jacket
jamie is tickling me :)
hello :)
i like his tummy
and his bum
i hope he doesnt take any of this seriously
im such a creeeeper
i see jonathans underwear
not that i havnt seen it before
i love the musical :)
tim still reads my blog?
i thought he hated me
ummmmmm like really
and want kool aid
paul is romping
i love jonathan......
my blog fails so bad because its just stream of consciousness
since when?
apparently so though
cool cool
i should go get ready for gala
sorry :)
i love you world.

oh. ps.
liz is sexy!
pps. so is jonathan
ppps. im joking around
im not actually in love with jonathan :)
pppps. he is really rad though
ppppps. i should stop talking. :)

Thursday, April 22, 2010


that is all that necessary
i dunno
i like being happy though
i really miss the days when i had some form of time to
and actually did blog
and actually made sense
only not at all
cause i dont do thatt ever...ever
im so lame
all the time
i dont really want to blog very much right now
i need to find some good lyrics to name this blog
much better title
i should...AHHHH
yay! for flaming lips
and wayne cohen
im gonna stop this now
its so slow
imm sorry for being boring :(

Sunday, April 18, 2010

if you love me wont you let me know.

Im gonna write a real post now.
and not be entirely lame
woohoooh on life right abotu now
had a rad weekend
shall have a a grand week
cause i love music festival!!! YURRSH
and life...
and hikes...
and ma friends..
im sorry
just yeah
i want to watch glee right now.... for no specific reasons
did i not promise this blog would never get personal
yupp yupp yupp
so it wont
so i deffo have a dance tmmrw
i get to be kermit the frog yeahh thats right
and im nervous for wednesday
i have interpretation
im lame
i am just gonna continue in this circle
cause me being excited makes me feel lame
no excitement for panda
just skipping
and lost of hickes
and gleee

i am lame

I have problems.

i want swings


YAYYYYYYYY. thats all i have to say.

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Je suis pathétique.

bumm dee bummm
so here i am
sitting at home alone
bumm dee bummm
no one to talk to
no one
except my books
books are my friends
books are my lurves
im gonna marry a book
specifically this one
im not sure who would write this
BUT it sounds amazing
tennillle come home!!!
lizard come home!!!
hunneh...youre home but you ar with man friend
i want books now
immature drama is a win
oh yeah!!
so once again i have decided to stop being a bitch
happiness and love
they are hand in hand
so i must love all!!!!!!!!!!!!
there you have it.
well there may be some exceptions.... no
bad panda
love them ALL

Thursday, April 1, 2010

I want you to want me.

Dear small screaming girls across the street, im not sure why you are finding entertainment in screaming in the bushes....but it is fairly annoying. It also makes me worry.....are you being raped? molested? abused in any form? this is a serious matter. i am tempted to phone the police just because those horiffic screams make me worry for your well being. The number is 911. fyi. and if my guess is wrong? well then hallucination is usually not a good thing and you should get off any drug you are currently consuming. Good Day. :)

that was my latest status update. ONLY NOT!
im was like 100 words over the maximum i mean whats with that???
i just wanted to vent
drunk LGs girls are annoying
i mean...theyre not even old enough to make good decisions
like come on ... one of them is dating my brother
where is the good decision in that?
no im kidding
he good boy
i dunno why they all want to grow up so quickly
its stupidio
like i can understand getting drunk once or twice
like come on
everyone loves it so much you gotta get curious
but getting hammered every weekend because it will make you "cool"
oooh yeah
everyone will like me when im pissed
oh yeah....why did you want them to like you again?
it makes me mad
cause they are all so small and theyre just going to ruin their lives
and there is nothing i can do about it

Monday, March 29, 2010

Somethin' filled up
my heart with nothin',
someone told me not to cry.

But now that I'm older,
my heart's colder,
and I can see that it's a lie.

Children wake up,
hold your mistake up,
before they turn the summer into dust.

If the children don't grow up,
our bodies get bigger but our hearts get torn up.
We're just a million little gods causin' rain storms turnin' every good thing to

I guess we'll just have to adjust.


Sunday, March 21, 2010

The greatest pain that comes from love is loving someone you can never have.

hmmm. sigh.
i know i am a failure.
its seriously been like 2 months
i know tis horrible.
i want icecream.
i pretty much dont know what to do with my life anymore.
well i know what i want to do.
BUT its not gonna happen.
so i just stare at my wall and such.
and durk your mom
and yeah.
never sleep
and pee
like right now
so like an hour later i am returning with an emptier bladder
a fuller tummy
a bowl of icecream
my cellular device
and a happier mood
good good
did you know that blogging often makes me sad
cause it makes me think about my life
hahaha that sounded awfully sad and over dramatic
i didnt mean it like that though
i just google searched myself
im like the 3rd one
i love twitter
but if you add terrace
the im the first 3
cause its all like YOU ARE AN ENTREPRENEUR
its a win
i just read the article....why? im not so sure
im stoked for the summer
i like it
its fun
i get to make hotdogs
i should talk to mrs c about that
im so excited to talk to her...just in general
i hope you caught that sarcasm
i love it when she secretly talks bad abou tmy friends
and then insults me but comes up with some bullshit comments that makes it sound better
and how often she contradicts herself
and how often i just want to kill her
i also want to kill him right now
just cause then hell be dead
and i wont have to think about it
it is a good way to solve this situation
i dont want to go to jazz
at alll
its lame
i like it
but i suck
so now its just like ruining my self confidence
and i dont have like any solos
god i miss my old tone
sweeet allah
guess what guys? im going to hell.
i really like mint chocolate chip icecream
i dont know if i mentioned that before
but it is my favorite
i dont want to put away laundry
i watched dracual today
it was amazing
i love gore
and your mother
and the love story was just obscene
infatuation can go die
it just causes problems
and regrets
maybe i should go to bed
its good for me
and i i have to logg my sleeping hours for planning
(aka you might have crappy parents so im gonna teach you this class)
and it might be better to you know...actually get sleep for a couple days
so mrs c doesnt start using me as a bad example
it would be sad
my icecream is gone
so am i?
yes i know
once again


Sunday, February 14, 2010

Crazy cat woman

im sorry for never ever blogging
im just
im busy
but yus
i want an ipad
but really....not at all
theyre huge
whats the point
its like a laptop that can break waaay to easily
and costs 800 bucks
or 400
but yeah
hahahha i have te pee and im going to skyoe lizzabeth.... maybeh
oh yeah
Happy fucking valentines. :)
sorry that was usnescesary
i guess i just dont really believe in valentines day
isnt love complecated enough as it is??

Monday, February 8, 2010

moments ill never forget. :)

what is your favorite movie.
ive never been able to choose.
but i deffo have movie moments i will never forget.
i dunno where i got this idea.
just thinking about sarah and my rockin childhood.
and all our fav movies
so heres a hole bunch of rad movie moments that u can remember
and giggle at
or be amazed by
or you know
just cry a bit
lifes a rad thing. :)
yeah there might be some actual life moments
and some video games

First off thers lotr
just so many of those
i might as well start there
just for pure epicness
ok so anyone who knows me knows i madly in love with legolas
so here you go

best scenes ever!

i cant find the other one
but no one can forget when legolas slides down a stair case on a shield
and kills like 10 guys at the battle of helm deep

and of course when aragorn discovers that merry and pippin have been killed
(he thinks)
and kicks a metal helmet and falls screaming to his knees
this anguished screaming wasnt fake ladies and gentleman
as viggo mortensen kicks the helmet
he breaks his toe
and screams in pain
yussss for good timing.
im moving on beofre i bore you all
who can ever forget these wonderful dentistry trained fish blabbling on about god knows what
theyre all just great

What did I miss? Am I late?

Root canal and it's a doozy.

Root canal, eh? What did he use to open?

Gator-Glidden drill.

He seems to be favoring that one. Hope he doesn't get surplus sealer at the portal terminus...

and of course dory
she can sing
she can speak whale
and she cant rememebr a thing
OH and shes ellen degenerous
how cant you love her
Sea monkeys got my money
yes, i am an natural blue

another one i just cant get enough of
mean girls is a winner

Charlies angels
who can forget the three gorgeous girls
breaking into redstar dressed as men
(or a fiery female boss who likes to whip her employees all while wearing a leather mini)
Thats talent

ahhhh and the end battle of the first pokemon movie
with tear jerking music
and pickachus never give up attitude your almost crying for ash and his friends

i mean seriously
who doesnt love gerard butler wearing no clothing
epicly cutting arrows off his shield
kicking prosecutors down wells
and taking everything you got
oh, am i the only one?
hmmm *shrugs shoulders* more for me

Stick it.
everyone loves the overly sarcastic haley graham
but of course there is the judges are just jealous speach
which as a performer i tell myself everytime im back stage

and then there is wei weis beam routine where she pulls out er obviously fake beam routine
and rocks my world :)

little mermaid
her never ending dreams
her overly strong will to live
to be happy
we all lover her
you got to
she may make mistakes but COME ON
...oooooh im getting into disney

pretty much my lifes motto right there
i love this song
i love this whole movie
It IS my favourite movie
theres no denying that
ahhhh mulan
love of my life
i love this whole movie
every time she saves china i feel just little better in side
of course just the idea of a disney princess who can get something done
ahhh we all love
At last, my arm is complete again!
success right there.
over dramatic scene ftw

and while were on that

i love this scene
Link_and_Zelda.jpg Love image by Link_ilia

zelda and link should just do it already
im sorry :)

i am going to continue this
i have jazz

Thursday, February 4, 2010


so im updating this from the parking lot at safeway
i know im cool
but yes
i appreciate being able to update my blog while my mother buys herself tea
i know
hahaha but she better hurry up
or im going to eat her up
i actually may hand in some french
i know
i have
why is its even nescesary
it should be renamed
why you should disrespect your teachers 101
so bad

Monday, February 1, 2010

Damn it.


ok i appoligise

its just such a sad story

no blogging.......


ahahah i blog now

but im not sure why

considering im at sassquads

want to shuck a baby later?

i know i do

hahah i love olympic torch relays


hahah rad

nom nom
i love random product placement
and cool painter guy
i get to go to the closing ceremonies
it better be that cool

Saturday, January 23, 2010

ahhh yes. chelle, i hope u read this..... cause we are totaly better then her.... :)

soooooo bad!
break your ankles.
get it over with.
your costume makes it look like your going to perform......?

All this weight is on, it's worse We're moderate, we modernize. ‘Til our hell is a good life.

it makes me really mad when i write this big post
and then in some mad circumstances it is deleted
and im just like
please catch the finding nemo quote
i didnt do enough math today
although i did jump into a pool with all my clothes on ...:)
like i can get entirely up on my box
and chelle and jac cant
and i dont mean this in like some mean bitch oh im better then u way
cause i never will be
its just never happens to me
but it just gives a kind of sick thrill
when i think of how im the one sophia had doubts in
like i could tell she was this close to not putting me on pointe
and like i never really told anyone...... but i was pretty sure she wasnt going to
im just like HAH dont doubt in me again!
it just makes me feel good about myself
and like i know chelle and jac will be better then me in under a month
so im just gonna lay here and just revel in my pwnageness
for the first time in my life
cause really what have i got on them?
i can do variety...cause i can act
and i can pop
but really that requires no training
and thats pretty much the problem
it be big fail
pointe=me enjoying the idea of getting up saturday mornings

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Why cant i ever go to bed when i plan to??

I just loved being exposed to new things.
and thats why i must now expose you.

Read now!
you will pee
i will never refer to pants as bella again
always pants
so you know if ur ever wondering what i want for my birthday
look no further

BUT! especially these 2
the abstinence one is my favorite
really really

i want to get this one for darien

and those are pretty much my discoveries of the evening.
kinda lame
Oh and i rediscovered some weird math thing
i hate math
so much
im gonna die
im goin to bed
pip pip

Tuesday, January 19, 2010


I start up in the north I grow from special seed
I sprinkle it with sensibility
from French and Hungarian snow
I linger in the sprouting until my engine's full

Then I move across the sea
To European bliss
To language of poets
As I cut the cord of home
I kiss my mother's mother
look to the horizon

wide eyed, new ground
humbled by my new surroundings

I am a citizen of the planet
My president is kwan yin
My frontier is on an airplane
my prisons: homes for rehabilitating

Then I fly back to my nest, I fly back with my nuclear but everything is different
So I wait, my yearn for home is broadened, patriotism expanded by callings from beyond
So I pack my things nothing precious all things sacred

I am a citizen of the planet
My laws are all of attraction
My punishments are consequences
Separating from source the original sin

I am a citizen of the planet
democracy's kids are sovereign
Where the teachers are the sages
And pedestals fill with every parent

And so, the next few years are blurry, the next decade's a flurry of smells and tastes unknown
Threads sewn straight through this fabric through fields of every color one culture to another

I come alive and I get giddy I am taken and globally naturalized
I am a citizen of the planet
From simple roots through high vision
I am guarded by the angels
My body guides the direction I go in

I am a citizen of the planet
My favorite pastime edge stretching
Besotten with human condition
these ideals are borne from my deepest within

Monday, January 18, 2010

Now inside shes lost it. She broke down from wanting. Hes pulling her heartstrings. This must be a mistake. Predictable reaction.

were all crazy
recent discovery on my part
oh yus
where does the toetag go on a person if they have no toes??
i just left u and went for a run on my beautiful runny thing
i shouldnt be aloud to leave things on my bed
its so big and puffy ...and everything just goes missing
its sad
really it is
i really need to my hmmrwk
thursday is the official day when im going to come home and do my rom and jul work
cause its needed
and even a bad mark is better then o%
and i have other stuff to do
im still missing that wrksheet that we did way back when
i asked her for it
she never got it
im so excited for second semester
my elbow hurts
so my semester buddy is chelly
its exciting
although im going to miss having janine as a semester buddy
its a sad story
but happy
cause i have science and gym with chelle
and still gym with janine
so the best of both worlds
but we are just gonna rant about dance ALL THE TIME
and mr marleau is gonna kill us
but he likes me
so its all good
and hes super easy
but im afraid ill fail the provincial
but really if i do all my hmmwrk....
pfft thats never gonna happen
well i still allways get like 89 in his class
whuch is decent
considering i hand everything in late
i shuld stop that though
nodds enthusiastically
im the biggest prcrastinator ever
its bad
really bad
like so bad
im on the computer right now
i have hmmwrk
shes like im gonna teach u how to jazz dance
lets start with calypso turns
...cause u know its so beginner
and she has the worst arms of my life
hmmm well shes not that bad
just annoying

hahah best thing ever

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Lights turn blue. Shine on you. Shining right through.

meow meow meow
so i hate patrick moore
i just wanted to get that one out there
he wonders why
  1. he was absolutely in love with every other girl around me....even though he did love me the most....but still LIES
  2. he needs to learn how to respect not saying that i dont...but HE REALLY DOES
  3. he should think before he says things.... and actually mean them
  6. ugh!
  7. he needs to choose between "flirting around" and having an actual relationship cause he doesnt seem to know the difference
  8. likeing like 5 girls at the same time is indecent
stop hurting people bitch

hahah im sorry
rant rant rant
yeah i just dont even know
it was great at the time
i really want to be a free bird
i just do
im just bad at it
i want to be truely single
and roam as the singles do
and being a freakish single
i am sorry
i just dont even remember what its like to be single
liek not having that person who ur attached to
i dont know
i like it to much to give it up though :)
i cant live without em
im to damn good at being mentally unstable
ohhh weelll
tweet tweet

yeah who am i kidding

Friday, January 15, 2010

Every boy cant be romeo! :)

God im a fattehh
yeah we weent out for nilles cake day dinner
yeah our server asked us
"how do you girls eat so much??"
we peed
and then came up with some humorous answers
so in any future moments when anyone asks
"how do you girls eat so much??"
or any variation of that question
we will answer
just to confuse them more
Hun: ....Im not actually a girl
Lizard: Im eating for 2...
Pan: Im just gonna throw it up anyway...
Nille: There just my feelings...

i know
i dont thing my mother thought so.....
she was just being curious as to why so many people go to mr mikes
....and not the bear country
im like cause theyre practically a bar
and its true so fat
...thats your mother
i dont want to clean
i think i may get in the bath
and go to bed
it is not cleaning
i need my sleep
yeah today my head hurt so much in planning
i thought it was going to implode
and then i was dizzy
and falling over
and yeah
not good
only prolly not
twitchy birdland dance!
i thought so
im excited fo sushi tmmrw
at nilles!
i like bdays
i feel like playing online games
thats right im cool
or zelda
but then my mother will tell me to clean
....not worth it
then bird, he came and spread the word! BIRDLAND!
miles came through, train came too
theyre hanging without me
im in my my boxers
and theyre at sassquads
speaking off sass gonna go read her blog
good plan
i thought so

Thursday, January 14, 2010


before i kill someone!
punchhheeddd IN THE UTERUS!
ahh yes i just cant get enough of your sparkling wit and charm
ahh yes thousands of lives have been enriched with your wisdom
im sorry
im watching the ugly truth
and i really appreciate her sarcasm
its great
i love him
i stayed home sick today
i have an exploding head
especially right now
it kept me up all night
it hurts so bad
and i told my brother to give mrs horne my english
and he left it on his bed
but on the bright side i actually tried so at least i can get 50%
and my head hurts to much to do the math i planned on doing
i wont be able to focus
although i prolly shouldnt be doing this either
my head hurts
and i need a kleenex
hahahahah i love them
katherine higel and gerard butler = AMAZING COUPLE
i know who else is an amazing couple...heheh

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

if one of you dont comment.....i will punch someone in the uterus ...seriously

i am posting pictures of my prom dress for the benefit of chelly and domonehh
i love you guys :) :)

aint she a beut??
i thought so
im so sick
and tired
really i am
but vampire weekend helps
Dan le sac Vs. Scroobius pip
my goal is to listen to this song so often that i know every word
just like fashionsista
and i can rememeber every word without the music
i think so
i dont want to do homework
but i will
and then ill get drugged
and go to bed
and hopefully be alive enough to go to school?
i dont want to draw a picture
at least i dont HAVE to colour it
i can go for some crap shading
but no demented eyes just cause i hate a character this time
bad idea
he looked crazeh
im so indie....i look UP and see the underground
i have earned an indie phrase
thats right
i have like 10 bands janine doesnt
i know it doesnt sound that amazing ...BUT IT IS
im proud of myself
liz+ red hair =happy

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

JUst dANcE!

( i Love this here image)
SO pretty much
dance was exactly what i was missing
i feel like myself again
which is truly splendid
i appreciate it.
thanks to janine and her wonderfulness
i officially have like 100 views more then i did 2 days ago
so thank you anyone out there who i dont know and still reads my blog
it makes me feel a little bit more loved everyday
i really do like comments though.
like a lot
and i dont get any
SO even if i have no idea who you are (which i highly doubt)
its that small button

Friday, January 8, 2010


thats all there is to it
it is what it is
so stop worrying
it seems like its going to last forever
but before you know it youll be at your wedding or laying on your death bed
which also makes me think.
is your death bed the place where you die?
or the actual bed.
which could mean
you could own your death bed your entire life
although i somehow doubt that
hmmm freaky
back to the point
dont let your problems get you down
yeah i have forgotten this lately
its just been to much for me
but really
who cares?
it will allways get better
even if only for a short period
and your problems will eventually end
and everything wil be good again
just the way we all like it
and why shouldnt we
we all like being happy
its one of the best feelings out there
just like being loved
climbing into your big comfy bed with your favourite pillow after a long day
listening to a new playlist
staring at your brand new 800 page book
or watching the sun slowly descend into the horizon
knowing that tomorrow youll have a new beginning.
those magical moments are what we all strive for
what we love
what we need

....but when we forget these things
it becomes too much
we forget how to deal with our crappy lives
and break down
fall into a heap on the floor
and cry

but its life
and it is what it is
not anything else
so live it
and forget about your problems
because they may seem like to much but when your older
youll realize it was nothing
because thats really what your problems are in this big green world