Wednesday, May 26, 2010

We all know what pan does when shes lazy.




I say hey I'll be gone today
But I'll be back all around the way
It seems like everywhere I go
The more I see
the less I know
But I know one thing
That I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you

I’ve been a lot of places all around the way
I’ve seen a lot joy and I’ve seen a lot of pain
but I don’t want to write a love song for the world,
I just want to write a song about a boy and a girl
Junkies on the corner always calling my name
And the kids on the corner playing ghetto games
When I saw you getting down well I hoped it was you
And when I looked into your eyes I knew it was true
I say Hey I'll be gone today
But I'll be back all around the way
It seems like everywhere I go
The more I see
the less I know
But I know one thing
That I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you

Now I’m not a highly metaphysical man
But I know when the stars are aligned you can
bump into person in the middle of the road
look into their eyes and you suddenly know
Rocking in the dance hall moving with you
Dancing in the night in the middle of June
My momma told me don’t lose you
‘cause the best luck I had was you
I said Hey I'll be gone today
But I'll be back all around the way
It seems like everywhere I go
The more I see the less I know
But I know one thing
That I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you

And I said rocking in the dance hall moving with you
I said Hey momma hey momma close to you
Rocking in the dance hall moving with you
I said hey papa, hey papa close to you
Rocking in the dance hall moving with you
I said Hey Momma close to you
Rocking in the dance hall moving with you I said
hey momma, hey momma, hey momma, hey momma
hey momma, hey momma, hey momma, hey momma
what you gonna do?

My momma told me don’t lose you
Cause the best luck I had was you
And I know one thing that I love you
I said hey I'll be gone today
but I’ll be back all around the way
It seems like everywhere I go
The more I see the less I know
I said hey I'll be gone today
but I’ll be back all around the way
It seems like everywhere I go
The more I see the less I know
But I know one thing that I love you

Monday, May 24, 2010

Dont you rain on my parade. :)


Each morning when I open my eyes I say to myself: I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn't arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I'm going to be happy in it.

- Groucho Marx

What exactly is happiness and how can we find it? Though it is defined as the condition of being content, the concept of happiness is still vague. Happiness is often thought of as having a lot of money, love, or power. In short getting everything you want and more. But can these things actually make people happy? Happiness, which is often assumed of as a fairly simple concept, is actually more than what people think of it. Although this natural emotion is desired by many, it is very obscure and therefore, for most, extremely difficult to find. It can be mysterious and elusive. Sought for, but often not found. Everybody desires to be happy. It is essential to our health and well-being. Happiness, though intangible, is one of the most important aspects in an individual’s existence. So why not be happy? Most people are about as happy as they make up their mind to be. So why does it have to be so complicated. Humans look at it from the wrong angle. They see it as something to search for instead of realizing it is something they are capable of. Notice that the glass is always half full. Happiness is something we all hold in the palm of our hands.

Thursday, May 20, 2010

Fuck you, Fuck you Very, Very much! :)

HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
you make me laugh. So im pretty much stoked. Like, of course im not happy with the fact buuuut. Yeah. Ok. So my dads crack whore (notice lack of caps, ever, cause shes a WHORE) A BIG ONE. has apparently moved to New Zealand with my ever loving (not) faj. So, we have known this was a possibility. But truely we thought it was more likely that she was living in PG.
But nooope. SO pretty much me and my brother are planning murder. Of course not litterally. Some quotes from this convo go like this:
Paul: "So, mom, if i come back from NZ with a criminal record would that be a bad thing?"
Mom: "Yes. Even though it does sound like fun." i laughed forever.
BHAAAA
yeah. so i plan on never really referring to her as any thing that is even slightly not bitchy.
possible nicknames include bitch, whore, possibly cunt? just cause i love my brother. Now. Truely at first i was in that hell yes mood. and im stoked to pwn her. just cause. and to get her to make me mince pies alll theee timmmeee. and cut off her hair in her sleep. and
you know put rat poison in her crack. replace her cocaine with icing sugar. you know how it is.
I truely dont understnad how you could ever do that to anyone? What she did to us? I dont know how she lives with her self. Shes idiotic. And very very very lucky. That she has mangaed to avoid me for this long. I used to see her all the time. And really ...i wonder why? oh hey crack whore wanna have sex with me while my kids wait in the car?? ohhh suure fuck tard. sounds like fun. I want to beat her face in so bad. so bad. like to a pulp. and truely. these feelings are not uncalled for at all.

And ok. So fuck tard. Im gonna rant here. the more i rant the easier it will be to actually tell you that i dont think i can ever forgive you for what you did to me? what was all this bull shit you tried to give me how many years ago? yeah, "we and your moms have our problems, but well always be a family" BULLSHIT. we wernt even a family there. The only reason you could deal with being home is because there was something to clean. which means you could ignore us. and all those times you lied? yeah. i know about many. and the rest (which are prolly much more plentiful) i can guess that they are prolly worse. OH and yeah. I dont care if i never had a proper father. But wog needed you. He still needs you. I so wished you had at least tried. And no, giving him a beer at the river bank when hes 8 isnt trying. Not including him in anything you do isnt trying. One of your best friends is being a better dad to him then you ever were. and all he had to do is get him to help with the stupid business that you wouldnt leave to him. Cause youre a tard. and actually wait when im on this i am going to rant. Its your fault that i cant deal with sad feelings adn its your fault that i feel i need to be loved by everyone. And maybe thats why i always loved you more. Cause you didnt love me and i felt i had to try extra hard so you would show any form of fatherly feelings. Mommy gave me all i could ask for. All the love in the world. But she wasnt the challenge you were. Everyday id try to get a hug. Just a hug. I remember when you would get mad ta me for that. Just causee i wanted a hug? cause youre my father? or you are supposed to be... But this only made me try harder. I loved to complain about my legs hurting cause then you would carry me around on your shoulders. You rlove menat so much more to me. I see now its cause there wasnt really any there. and im ok with that. i can deal. but i kno wim better then that whore. so why dont you see that too?? and so i can say i hope the sand and thee booze is treating you well.



oh and.

Look inside,
Look inside your tiny mind
Now look a bit harder
Cause we're so uninspired,
so sick and tired of all the
hatred you harbor

So you say
It's not okay to be gay
Well I think you're just evil
You're just some racist who
can't tie my laces
Your point of view is medieval

Fuck you (Fuck you)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you (Fuck You)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause your words don't translate
And it's getting quite late
So please don't stay in touch

Do you get,
Do you get a little kick out of
being slow minded?
You want to be like your father
It's approval your after
Well that's not how you find it

Do you,
Do you really enjoy living a
life that's so hateful?
Cause there's a hole where
your soul should be
Your losing control of it and
it's really distasteful

Fuck you (Fuck You)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you (Fuck You)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause your words don't
translate and it's getting
quite late
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you, Fuck you, Fuck you,
Fuck you, Fuck you, Fuck you,
Fuck yooooou

You say
You think we need to go to war
well you're already in one
Cause it's people like you
who need to get slew
No one wants your opinion

Fuck you (Fuck You)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you (Fuck You)
Fuck you very, very much
Cause your words don't
translate and it's getting
quite late
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you, Fuck you
Fuck you, Fuck you
Fuck you, Fuck you

...i love you.

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

I keep trying to sleep but its really not working for me.

How am i finding these?
ANYWHO. As i was saying before......
Why is god so superior? I never truely understood that fact. Everyones like well he did this and this and this. But really, why is that so impressive? Like, i have nothing against it, and feel free to enlighten me. But why is it so impressive? They have kinda proved the whole he created everything theory wrong. Like maybe he did create the earth but the fact that he created everything on earth has so much proof going against it. Like come on. I implore you to see reason.(sorry harry potter quote) Like even my crazy catholic teacher got over that fact he had some odd theory that mixed evolution and the story of creation together in a way that made sense. I supported that. Other then that we all praise him because he sent his son to die for our sins? But how exactly did he release us from our sins by dieing.? I appreciate it and all. But im just not really sure how i benefit. Maybe i missed this day in school. And once again i say feel free to enlighten me. I just dont understand. Cause reall yeah ok sure he sent his son to die for our sins. But isnt every second father in America doing that right now? Their sons are fighting in Afghanistan and such to release the states from sin. Cause isnt that what killing people for oil is considered? yeah i duunno. maybe these men deserve more praise. I applaud them. :)



And then theres the fact that we do all this so we wont get sent strait to hell. But you see that confuses me. Why are we avoiding hell again? Yes, ok heaven is supposed to be perfect. But ive never really had a thing for perfect. And the idea of not being bale to sin, ever. Really bores me. And yes we are supposed to fear Satan. OOOO the devil. But doesnt the teachings of the church say that Satan is still on earth spreading sin? (Not even mentioning the fact that jesus was supposed to return 30 years after he died and save us from Satan. or am i wrong?) So, Heres the dealio. Im supposed to fear hell cause satan will torture me in hell. But satan is on earth. Why do i fear hell again? Its warm. I like sinning. YAYY. so truely i just dont understand any of it. It just confuses me. And im supposed to be sleeping. But this is what was running through my head. SO i rant. and sleep now.
yeaaaahhh.

Am i actually going to properly blog? HOLY SHIT

Love is madness. Its all bullshit. Like really. Who knows what love really is. No one does. But how else do we all describe this feeling? We all feel it eventually. And if not well then i pray to allah for you. But truely if i think it through i dont really believe in love. Like dont take that the wrong way. I do. But mostly i believe in happiness. We all want to be happy. And love is just another factor in happiness that we have all made up and squished into our heads. And it makes no sense. Buts its always there. And we all want it. Wed kill for it. Die for it. And it makes absolutely no sense. What does that tell you about the human mind? Were all idiotic thats what. But that is ok. Cause i love being happy. And i love love. WOOP WOOP.

"Now is he interesting or do you think he'd bore us"
I love Lily Allen.
but shes right.

Would you please take me away from this place
I cannot bear to see the look upon your faces
And if there is some kind of god do you think he's pleased
When he looks down on us I wonder what he sees
Do you think he'd think the things we do are a waste of time
Maybe he'd think we are getting on just fine
Do you think he's skint or financially secure
And come election time I wonder who he'd vote for

Ever since he can remember people have died in his good name
Long before that September
Long before hijacking planesHe's lost the will he can't decide
He doesn't know who's right or wrong
But there's one thing that he's sure of this has been going on too long

Do you think he'd drive in his car without insurance
Now is he interesting or do you think he'd bore us
Do you think his favourite type of human is caucasianDo you reckon he's ever been done for tax evasion
Do you think he's any good at remembering people's names
Do you think he's ever taken smack or cocaine
I don't imagine he's ever been suicidal
His favourite band is Creedence Clearwater Revival

Ever since he can remember people have died in his good name
Long before that September
Long before hijacking planes
He's lost the will he can't decideHe doesn't know who's right or wrong
But there's one thing that he's sure of this has been going on too long

Ever since he can remember people have died in his good name
Long before that September
Long before hijacking planes
He's lost the will he can't decide
He doesn't know who's right or wrong
But there's one thing that he's sure of this has been going on too long

I dont know how this is getting back into my mind. But its always there. And its stupid. I dont want to have anything against religion. But there are certain things that have happened in my life that kinda have pushed me in that direction. And dont get me wrong i will support anyones views. But really. I do think god would bore me. If hes anything like my childhood religion classes then i would be bound to get into a heated argument with him about anything from womens rights to his problems with the superiority complex.




Speaking of which. What do you kids have against communism. Yes i know its never works out properly. And truely its just socialism. BUT WHATEVER! it seemed to work in Cuba. Anything that can make an entire country so happy cant possibly be that bad. And yes i know it would work for us. Especially at this point in our development. But.........whatever. Go to cuba. its rad.

and on that note.

"Can you believe this shit? I guess hell froze over. ... a lot of people come up here and thank Jesus for this award. I want you to know that no one had less to do with this award than Jesus. So, all I can say is, 'suck it, Jesus.' This award is my god now."

HAH.
yeah youre hot.